On 2018-02-26 21:24:03 INL said:
Yes I was banned for writing one Afrikaans sentence, translating it in English, but obviously not adhering to the new law, so the guillotine came down and chopped off my hands. (Antionette and guillotine ? Apt if Marie was her first name ?) .
No problem with that, I was wrong. Not going to apologise for that, it was stupid from my side. Did think that a mere PM would suffice, but then again, maybe no one learns from that. Fucknuts galore on this forum. I never learn.
And the biggest fucknut of them all : ME
Did the unthinkable and the inexcusable. Lashed out in a Richard Louw induced moment of madness in pure desperation and frustration and deposited cropped up feelings in an avalanche of shit. Not physically, but the coward's way : in a whatsapp message.
To an innocent lady.
She did not ask for it, nor did she induce that, nor did she solicit me. She simply breathed. And did her job.
I simply read from a different script altogether.
Made me think of the Shakespearian dramas we had to endure in high school many moons ago. The weird and incomprehensible language foreign in sound as well as meaning. The only help the study guides that would tell the story in a more fluent and understandable way. Which is where I went wrong. I never got the study guide to the script I was reading. Chmoks had it, was on his list, but he disappeared. No wonder I could not figure out the script. And Muj's copy was torn to pieces.
The reasons for lashing out quite inconsequential, as the action itself dwarfs any and all actions before or after.
I was banned (yet again), some time ago under pieterd002 for standing up to fight for Russian Bridgitte, and yet here, in a moment of madness, I go and commit the ultimate sin. Doing exactly what I was fighting against and being banned for in the process. What a total hypocrite does that make me.
My punishment is severe. Never to see her again, never to hold her again, never to kiss her again, never to see that smile again. A lifetime of regrets. Only contempt for the cruel and unfair way I treated her.
The sun is darker now, the nights longer, the songs not so gay, the Richard Louw now a bitter pill.
So, as my virgin post, let me expose myself for the dark and cruel person that I have become. No wonder that loneliness and darkness pervades the air around me. The "goody" image now a myth. Shattered in the tsunami of shit heaped upon that sweet lady.
Herewith my unreserved and sincere apology.
I never learn(ed) what a prize prick I am until now....
On 2018-02-27 18:14:59 suzook said:
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I never learn(ed) what a prize prick I am until now....