How is everyones mental health?
I'm embarrassed to say that many many years ago I thought depression was one feeling sorry for themselves and being lazy
I also felt anxiety was a lie for attention
Until it happened to me
Most recently I was used and abused, lied to and told to F off by someone I pulled out of a deep depression
I attract this and need to figure out why
After sleeping with many randoms, whilst telling me I'm her number one, she ends it with, get over it, your anger is unattractive and unappealing so F off now, not realizing she was the cause of my anger.

Broke me. Felt weak to ruminate and let it get to me as much but I do believe in Love

I browse profiles and realize it's Mostly fake interactions when I'm looking for intimacy and to Not be Made to feel guilty for being a Man and having needs.

I guess I'm trying to find a regular to build a connection with, actually be friends, support her and enjoy intimate interactions

Some may say Wrong forum but in the past I've met some amazing people on here, real people who through their own experiencs, see Life for what it is.

I don't know what I wanted to achieve by This pos, maybe a girl on a similar wavelength reaches out but either way it felt good to type this even though it makes me feel a bit exposed

I have a very different view from many who may think this platform is the wrong space to share such a deep truth.

Good morning seanc and if I may say...the best honest sincere and worthwhile read on this forum that I have read in a long long time.

Thank you for your share. I loved every word you penned.

Your courage, your sincerity, your hope.


People are people in different places and spaces. In the mainstream of life getting away with physical and mental abuse is not a strange phenomena and excused, an embarrassment kept under wraps lest a judgemental cold society scoffs at it and thinks you moggy in the head.

Date sites are more traps for all sorts of things other than hopefully, finding another like minded individual.

And then the concern for finding a lady jn this space?

Sometimes it is the luck of the draw. Sometimes we like to fool ourselves, convince ourselves, even when the travesty is before us, that it is us that is wrong and NOT the abuser....because we think we love them and we want to save them and they love us back just as much and, they will change.

This space reveals the innermost part of ourselves. From the rawness of lusty porn star sex to hopefully companionship where a kindness is shared between total strangers....a share that leaves one a little more human feeling seen and valued for who one is.

When there are no strings attached, no expectations, no fear of a failed relationship.....and one finds it in that flitting hour or two , I say, what a wonderful blessed escape ....not a waste of time.

Now imagine this.....yes, some are scammers , sugar daddy seekers, solution to their upside down life seekers and then many many many women just there doing their "thing" , like any women in the main stream of things worthy of a relationship with a decent "punter "...a man who pays many women for sex....the most intimate act shared in a union and, if found out , the reason for a devastating end to ones partnership / marriage.

Most keep looking inward with opinionated judgement considering oneself supposedly a "catch" in a relationship and that a whore is nothing more, like some fucknuts here have referred to a WOMAN as a cum bucket and others have laughed at it thinking it funny....and those people are worthy of a relationship??

You will find gems of women in this space, more real, more giving, more understanding than many in the mainstream of life.

She has been there, done that and come out tops fighting and survived.

She will know you and your pain. She will relate without fear of reprimand from you. She is more real about life and the beauty of such with all its ups and downs.....she has been judged by society as nothing more than a whore, a failure....how stupid society can be.


May you come across that woman in this space. She is worthy of your attention and care.

Just make sure not to wear rose tinted glasses when making a choice....like many do even when choosing lifetime partnerships in the mainstream of life .


And.....treat her like she is the last drop of water on this fine earth and may she treat you the same way.


Russian Bridgitte.

@RussianBridgitte
You must be one of the nicest chicks I've read anything written on here... thanks for being the kind woman you are. Your words have made me feel better about being here and I know that I'm one of the woman on the purple world, that genuinely has a special place for each person that choses to spend time with me. It's not only a "job" for me.... I'm more into helping guys find someone that they can actually call a friend, companion... I myself have been in the depths of depression... but meeting the odd beautiful soul that is genuine and compassionate from this site and others, is worth it

@seanc
Contact me on 0794611799 sweetie... I'm out on the West Rand.... in a very quiet, private place, where you can drop your troubles @ the door and pretend for a little while, that the world is such a hurtful unforgiving place.... and walk away knowing, that there are still beautiful souls, willing to love without boundaries and conviction
Mwah

Lovies

Mila

One thing I learned about mental health is that the drugs(antidepressants etc) doctors give patients is the also the cause of the problem to a large extent ..some make people insane,zombies..

Amongst the thousands of commentators on this forum, there are certain contributors whom I always take the time to read --- @RussianBridgitte is one of them.

@seanc, there are gems in this purple world, what you seek can be found here, as in life, you get what you give.
Good luck, and enjoy the process.
It's not a bad haystack to search for the needle in :-)

On 2023-09-06 08:46:12 WestEnd said:
One thing I learned about mental health is that the drugs(antidepressants etc) doctors give patients is the also the cause of the problem to a large extent ..some make people insane,zombies..

You probably learned this from experience? If so, you're correct

Whilst antidepressant medication may have its place in severe cases where there's catatonia etc then a stimulant or a tranquilizer and to settle raging firing of neurons but..

The way in which SSRIs are prescribed as a fix is totally wrong.

The serotonin theory is flawed. Depression is way more complex than a mere serotonin deficiency and every SSRI has horrific side effects, some thst persist beyond treatment

So yes I see them as a poison.
They just turn you into a zombie. No ups but also no downs and that numbing effect is better to people that what they're currently going through when they have work and families to support

So whilst stating the above, I can understand why.

Just not for me, anymore, ever again

Same goes for MAOIs and trycyclics. Just less of a side effect profile.

On 2023-09-05 23:03:59 seanc said:
How is everyones mental health?
I'm embarrassed to say that many many years ago I thought depression was one feeling sorry for themselves and being lazy
I also felt anxiety was a lie for attention
Until it happened to me
Most recently I was used and abused, lied to and told to F off by someone I pulled out of a deep depression
I attract this and need to figure out why
After sleeping with many randoms, whilst telling me I'm her number one, she ends it with, get over it, your anger is unattractive and unappealing so F off now, not realizing she was the cause of my anger.

Broke me. Felt weak to ruminate and let it get to me as much but I do believe in Love

I browse profiles and realize it's Mostly fake interactions when I'm looking for intimacy and to Not be Made to feel guilty for being a Man and having needs.

I guess I'm trying to find a regular to build a connection with, actually be friends, support her and enjoy intimate interactions

Some may say Wrong forum but in the past I've met some amazing people on here, real people who through their own experiencs, see Life for what it is.

I don't know what I wanted to achieve by This pos, maybe a girl on a similar wavelength reaches out but either way it felt good to type this even though it makes me feel a bit exposed

First of all, well done for being willing to bring this this up. You're not alone either
Here's my man bag
Many years ago a lady I was seeing from this site said something that's stayed with me ever since....
Which was that I'm not going to find what I'm looking for on this site. On that she was absolutely correct. Problem is, I don't find it in real life either...
I have zero game, and at this point I don't really care either. The other 2 problems growing up were 1) that I looked about half my age. Still do. But back then that meant none of the girls gave you the time of day. No exceptions and no learning curve. Cruel and unusual punishment.
So most of my interactions are on this site.
Some of the ladies on this site claim that you're "friends" which is odd because you only see them when you've paid them. And they'd certainly never date me- not rich or great looking lol
And if you haven't seen them in a while, their so called friendliness declines about 50 percent per month until they stop replying to messages entirely.
I've suffered with depression for decades. I've tried SSRIs, psychologists, counsellors etc, all with marginal success.
Simply put, I don't fit into the regular mold that most guys fall into and don't understand some of the interactions lol.
The 2) problem is the most difficult to bring up and still is.
Being sexually abused by a male relative completely broke my trust, innocence, and feelings on sexuality. To this day there's still a few things that most people feel naturally that I have never felt and likely never will.
My current and only relationship has completely destroyed me financially because of her never ending illnesses and poor judgment with money. Recovery, if possible is going to take years! I'm permanently exhausted mentally, physically and financially. My libido died a long time ago as what remained my soul got crushed .
I've had bloodwork done, and there's nothing wrong me me there as far as doctors are concerned.
Hoping this makes you feel less isolated bud.
At this point I'm just running out the clock

On 2023-09-06 09:35:56 seanc said:
On 2023-09-06 08:46:12 WestEnd said: One thing I learned about mental health is that the drugs(antidepressants etc) doctors give patients is the also the cause of the problem to a large extent ..some make people insane,zombies..

You probably learned this from experience? If so, you're correct

Whilst antidepressant medication may have its place in severe cases where there's catatonia etc then a stimulant or a tranquilizer and to settle raging firing of neurons but..

The way in which SSRIs are prescribed as a fix is totally wrong.

The serotonin theory is flawed. Depression is way more complex than a mere serotonin deficiency and every SSRI has horrific side effects, some thst persist beyond treatment

So yes I see them as a poison.
They just turn you into a zombie. No ups but also no downs and that numbing effect is better to people that what they're currently going through when they have work and families to support

So whilst stating the above, I can understand why.

Just not for me, anymore, ever again

Same goes for MAOIs and trycyclics. Just less of a side effect profile.

Withdrawal symptoms are fucking brutal..boarders on criminality.Many people are stuck on these drugs because of this.

On 2023-09-06 09:35:56 seanc said:
On 2023-09-06 08:46:12 WestEnd said:

The serotonin theory is flawed. Depression is way more complex than a mere serotonin deficiency and every SSRI has horrific side effects, some thst persist beyond treatment

My head did that thing where it started spinning and I lost focus, so all I took away from what you said:

Something about Sarah, I will try to make a booking with Sarah, (The one from Wendyweed), Either at the Socials if she is there or after, and get some of her tonin. She looks really hot, maybe we might be soul mates like her picture says.

xoxo
AE

I am thinking my mental health is better everytime I complete booking.
Because I do more good things than bad things every day whenever I have the sex with hot girl who is fun also.
So I will carry on to whore every chance I can do,because teacher in school tell me health is wealth,and parents tell me always listen to teacher,and I liking to feel rich.