Inspired by the post read this morning on the forum in the General section.

My heart is sore and I feel you...all of you who might be struggling.

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Why me.

I may not be the same shade as u,
My bodily shape and facial features different to yours, that be true.

I struggle to express myself like most know,
Resorting to blabbering in trying to sound like u and, my intelligence hopefully to show.

At times,i feel just as important as I think u are...
And then I realise, I am not, and then cower back and look from afar...

And wonder what is wrong with me, why I am I so different?
In all I am, say, and do... so ambivalent?

Why is it I see myself in a differnet light?
While others in their sharing with me find, no delight?

So different I feel, so out of place, what is wrong with me?
Why is it that nobody understands and the real me see?

I cannot take this loneliness this sadness when I know I am worthy like everybody else,
A sad fearful foreboding this feeling in me spells.


I wish i felt differnet , I wish others could see the real me,
I wish my spirit to be unshackled, my soul to be set free.

Hallelujah!!!!


I know I am not alone in this confusion, this pain, this feeling of being an outsider...
The kindness and care I have seen in many around me be the decider....


To be with those I know understand my struggle and why I feel so,
And will accompany me on a path in life and with exuberance glow.

I am beginning to understand it is ok to be different and feel challenged,
And being with the wrong crowd asking for recognition my sanity shall be scavenged.

I am learning I am more than ok in all my ambiguity,
And life is worth all it challenges for great joy awaits in its continuity.

I acknowledge who I am and thank those that do too,
And thus will allow myself the blessings of the miracle of goodness that is mine and to me due.

RB.

Beautiful RB. I hope the man is okay and reads your post.

Thank u so much Jess.

When I wrote this piece , the concern was,that it would read like I hoped I wrote it.

In HOPE
In UNDERSTANDING
In SUPPORT..ACCEPTANCING LOVE....and that life is worth every challenge , every blessing bestowed on one and...one is NEVER alone.

We can only empathize but, never truly grasp the agony.

YET...hope those that are in a challenging space mentally, understand there are good people who care to listen and help

And

Are there for them no matter what.

They are SEEN and HEARD.

I hope the poster of the thread "respect" shall reach out

and

it is perfectly understood it many not be ANY of us on this forum for it may not feel like a safe zone without some form of judgement and too much intrigue and self projection of ones own pain and importance.

Just to let all us know, for we truly care to hear , that he is fine and knows we here for him.

RB.

We shall wait in hope that he indeed will make his presence known again :)