I am forlorn, disappointed and disgusted that I am part of this species we call human beings.... I hang my head in shame. I am heartbroken, sad, embarrassed, humiliated...

I feel physically sick and ill to the pit of my belly where the feelings and emotions boil in a venomous, sad, dark dirty place... like that of a black witches demonic potion she is cooking up to destroy some innocent soul. I should be proud of all I have achieved but yet I feel nothing but appalled and self loathing... WTF !!! There isn't a single part of me that feels anything but VILE!

How dare I call myself human? Why would I taint myself with that tar brush that others so freely feel comfortable painting themselves with..! They so freely discriminate, so easily criticize, with words so hurtful, destructive, causing pain so indescribable... written words, pen put to paper, hiding behind the facade of anonymity, a computer screen, without a thought or concern for another's suffering... Belittling, destroying, being sooooo fucking destructive! With NO regard for humanity.
Be it emotional, spiritual, mental, affecting their lively hood or just plain derogatory bitterness to see the undoing of another human that is in competition with them in business...

This world that Mother Nature bestowed upon us has become a place of turmoil fueled by humans that are so insecure, shallow and pathetically in need of stroking their own ego's with no regard for building up humanity. Its so much easier to destroy others, break them down, and maybe then feel a little better about your own paltry little non existent life you think you lead, sitting on your pedestals, in your high towers pretending to be perfect and untouchable! And I am not perfect... Far from it!

We are all just trying to make a better life for ourselves, aren't we? I question our loyalty, as humans daily when I see moments that we are given the power and ability to help a fellow human being heal and grow, but the majority just choose to break and destroy? What happened to us that we feed off such negativity instead of choosing to empower and encourage us as humans, together as a species, to attain Peace, Freedom, and Happiness!
At the end of the day our lives mean nothing on their own... for you are just merely a grain of sand on a very vast beach.. but if those grains of sands came together as one, and made that a perfectly sublime beach, creating an amazingly, beautiful, serene place where people could come and escape this sad world we have created for our future generations to live in... and just come together, as one and sit and bask in the glory of the wonderment, and watch a unique sunset, with Waves that roll and Crash onto the perfect shorelines, reflecting life as we know it. For nothing is perfect without its ebbs of the tide. That one moment of serenity, that mother nature only paints once a day and never again.

Revel in those moments, appreciate every breath, every soul that enters your short lifetime in this world, and actually validate and genuinely be humbled and grateful for that moment in time. And we could just give to other people, strangers that we may never meet, but we could give those people a sacred place, where they could absorb that beauty, in that moment and then just multiply it by giving it back to another human.... well maybe that's a world I would want to be a part of and live in.... Just Be and Breathe!!!

Rule one... before you utter a word... think of the lingering presence it will leave and if its something you wouldn't want said to you! Change it before you utter it... Instead..... just say something beautiful and kind... with a genuinely good heart and no expectations of any reward! Just because you can!

But this "World" as it is now.... with what we define as being acceptable Human Beings..... NO!!!

I am not sure I am OK to be defined as a Human Being anymore!

Arz

You're beautiful just the way you are Arz.

Even in your chains my dear you're a strong free spirited soul. You ran a good race and fought a good fight. Your reward awaits you.


Stay blessed

We are a plague to this planet Arizona. Consuming and destroying as we go along. If earth was our body and humans were doing what they do now I have no doubt we would have found ways to get rid of the infection already. Our time is coming, the world will fight back, nature will fight back and I sincerely hope I am not alive to see that day.

Life is short.

So break your silly egos, forgive quickly, believe slowly, love truly, laugh loudly and never avoid anything that makes you smile.

Lovies
Joy

Amen to that Arizona! It pains me very deeply to see that Schadenfreude still rules the herd...I guess it always will, because it is a form of instant self gratification - it makes the lesser evolved souls feel alive and good about themselves for a fleeting moment....

Having said that, it takes many life times to evolve to the point where a person sees and feels things on a much deeper level and where "I" cease to exist...

If only we lived in an ideal world!

You, me, all of us Arz have those dark parts of our souls! You not being okay including yourself in the human race, insinuates that you see yourself above it, like you don't belong there! Arz, I love you, but we both know that the sadness you elude to is something we all feel, regardless of our behaviour and we both know you are not an exception to that behaviour!

Sorry Boo, I admire the lovely words and I relate, but you have also done and are also capable of the things you claim to hate! We all are! We might not like what the mirror of our souls tell us we are, but we cannot deny our own participation in the world around us!

Looking at human history, nothing has happened to us, we have always been and always will be monsters! Nothing changes but one thing I would agree on is that we can change the world around us one small kindness at a time. We may not always choose to do so with every opportunity given, but not everyone is totally bad and by the same token not everyone is completely good! Some of us are more sensitive to bad but it does not mean we are not capable of it or have never fallen to its appeal.

The possibility of changing the world seems daunting! But all we can do is change the world around us one small kindness at a time! That does not mean we have to be or will be kind every single time, especially when one takes advantage or takes that kindness for granted. As human beings, yes, we get angry, vengeful etc as a knee jerk reaction initially! We have the rest of our lives, or not to think about and perhaps even try and right the consequences or fallout from those reactions. Yes, we are ashamed of them and shame is a heavy burden to bear, but shame comes from hiding your humanity and denying you are an intricate part of what makes the world what it is today!

On 2017-04-27 09:11:10 Joy said:
Life is short.

So break your silly egos, forgive quickly, believe slowly, love truly, laugh loudly and never avoid anything that makes you smile.

Lovies
Joy

Joy, simple but true! Words you truly live by as far as I can see! One day when I grow up, I hope to be like you, lol.

On 2017-04-27 00:10:35 Arizona said:


Rule one... before you utter a word... think of the lingering presence it will leave and if its something you wouldn't want said to you! Change it before you utter it... Instead..... just say something beautiful and kind... with a genuinely good heart and no expectations of any reward! Just because you can!

Arz

This is dammn hard to do! Something I try everyday, yet fail miserably every time. Will not give up on this rule though...will get it right one day...I'm sure.

Beautiful words Miss A...we are so focused on pointing out the differences in each other in order to put someone else down to make ourselves feel better that we forget that under the silos we have created...race, crede, colour, religion etc...is another human being. Human beings have forgotten how to be human and that is sad.

My rule #1: Judge nobody...you know nothing of their journey.

Miss Arizona - I hear you paining with the conduct of your fellow man. Of late this community has been exposed to some very emotionally invested ramblings and musings, most of which have been polar opposites but at the same time subjectively perceived to be correct. For some it hasn't been a wonderful experience observing this behaviour.
But sometimes something just comes along that reminds us of a brighter side to our existence - on my FB feed this morning the following passage popped up which blew me away. When I read your post above I thought it needed be shared to bring these smaller moments into the perspective of the bigger game......

Life is amazing. And then it's awful. And then it's amazing again. And in between the amazing and awful it's ordinary and mundane and routine. Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the ordinary. That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. And it's breathtakingly beautiful. - L.R Knost.

Arizona, I sincerely hope that you can see yourself as part of humanity again, as amazing, ordinary and awful as it is.

And now back to punting.........