Rckwilder007 - you hit the nail on its head there. With all these beautiful woman here on ESA the temptation....
Especially Victoria from HOE, Amber Jade, Foxi, Lexus and many others.
Think i should wait a while before i jump in due to my anger at the moment as some have advised.

They say when life deals you lemons, you should either make lemonade or squeeze the lemon juice into the eye of who ever dealt the lemons to you... I just neet to get my mind right to really enjoy it.

Just do it!!!
Then decide how u feel?
Then label it accordingly!

Love how Rockwilder put it.
Just look at it as a way to 'get rid of your frustration' so to speak.
Just don't give up. As everyone finds someone in life. Just live in the moment.
Xxx
Nicole

Go and visit one of the ladies. Revenge and anger will float out the window......you will leave with a smile on your face.

Ammm won't you need to grow some balls before you go on a revenge punt, almost four years of pining after someone who did not reciprocate...
you should write a love ballad instead, anyway she could probably smell the desperation off of you...
I don't think you should go for a punt, you will probably fall in love and stalk them or something, rather go see a psychiatrist...

@tango247 and deane I like your idea. @lookingforfun29 I'l tell u a little story that may help. In December 2013 I was going out with what I thought was the love of my life. At this stage I hadn't entered the industry yet but what happened partly gave me the nudge to do it. I'd had a very bad car accident where he hadn't been there for me and shortly afterwards my bf broke up with me and went to a concert with his ex and best friend where they had a 3some. We were suppose to go to that concert together. This hurt me dearly so I ended up sleeping with his cousin, best friend and another ex fuck buddy all in the same day. Its weird I know but the angrier I am the hornier I get and releasing some of that tension helped me. Now I just no longer care what he does or what happens to him. I'd moved on.

Doubleslapedass - dude - damm man ! That was some brutally honest shit there. - but also very true. Mabey a psychologist is a good idea... or a lady from this site pretending to be one... who "helps" me get over this whole thing...

Savanna - sorry to hear that. That was a shit one you were dealt with, but glad you found a way to release that buildup of tension.

Doubleslapedass - dude that is so uncalled for.
Lookingforfun29 - I take my hat off to you for making the difficult move to be honest here. It actually takes balls to do something like that.
And for many punters in za - punting is a form of therapy for many in many different ways. If you feel that it isn't, come book a dominatrix session with me and then I can show you what I mean when I say that.

Thank u @lookingforfun29 but life goes on. @Nicole that it is. Think about it guys. After a stressful week. We all love a roll in the hay so to speak to relax and rejuvenate. Releasing that tension makes us sleep better and feel better. Sounds to me like all that @lookingforfun29 needs is some relief so he can think clearly again.

Nicole - i kinda asked to have stones thrown at me posting on a subject like this. He went direct to the point, which i appreciate, and i appreciate you telling him that his comment is not cool.

BDSM is something that has always caught my attention, so i think i will be inboxing you soon.

Thanks to all who have contributed to this subject. You inputs, no matter how nasty they may have sounded, i have taken into consideration.

"Tomorrow the sun will rise...who knows what the tide may bring" ( Cast Away movie)