Made me even more aware how hypocritical society is and that labels mean not that the person is less in character or personality.

That ego plays a huge role among men and women and knowing to navigate through that and all the cloak and Dagger, without losing oneself needs "balls of steel".

Understanding the possible impact of my choice on my closest and most loved made me very careful of my conduct in this space keeping very pvt and as discreet as possible.

If things had been different in 2015 I am sure I would have settled for other choices .

But. Being in the space now for nearly a decade, it has neither harmed me nor changed me for the negative.

If anything I have learnt things about myself and society I would never have known otherwise.

RB

Acceptance and excellence

Accept where you are and what you are doing. And then do it with excellence. The thirst for excellence will take you to a better place, from where you are now.

My 10c

Hazel i never said anything about a person having regrets. I dont think anybody has regrets of their past decisions.
There is that saying

If i knew then what i know now.

Well like they say. Shit happens for a reason

Its life.....

On 2024-06-26 05:15:49 Pumpkineater said:
Hazel i never said anything about a person having regrets. I dont think anybody has regrets of their past decisions.
There is that saying

If i knew then what i know now.

Well like they say. Shit happens for a reason

Its life.....

Apologies sir - I was just going off what you said implying 'everyone would change their ways or the decisions they made if [they] could turn back time.

Perhaps misunderstood what point you were making but definitely sounded like regret.

No worries hazel.

Unfortunately its made me unable to believe that there are any faithful ,loyal men in this world. 90 percent of my clientele are married , to the most beautiful woman , ( they often show me pics ) with beautiful kids ,,,,,yet they frequent escorts , ... Im not complaining in fact I believe it stops them having affairs and actually saves marriages ,as well as helping me to provide for my family,,, but , it is really hard to be the woman I was before that believed in love and fairytales....I just accept that men are men and unfortunately this makes me struggle to trust in my own relationship ( which is self sabotage)

I'm always curious as to why the married guys cheat or go see an escort especially if they have a beautiful loving caring wife. Forgive me if I am being naive here

Edit, I recall one of the members here saying moslem girls act all horny before the marriage and as soon as the wedding happens the legs are closed for business. That I can understand.

@ Katya, Thank you for your reply. It is honest and insightful.

I would need more time to articulate a better response, but perhaps look to the deeper meanings of "Faithful & loyal" that you yourself may have discovered since the days where you believed in "love and fairytales".

For you to be in a relationship, whilst doing this work, you have perhaps realized that you can be "Faithful & loyal" to your one relationship partner, even while sharing your intimate physical self with strangers/clients.

Your clients meet "Katya".
They don't meet "You" Whereas "You and your relationship partner" share your real intimacy in the relationship.

If you can understand this definition of "Faithful and loyal" in the sense that no other man but your partner, shares the real you.

Then perhaps you can see your "90% married clients" as also being capable of being "Faithful and loyal" to their wives, even whilst enjoying the pleasures of an hour with "Katja".

Don't lose faith in "love and fairytales".

On 2024-06-27 09:09:24 Katya said:
Unfortunately its made me unable to believe that there are any faithful ,loyal men in this world. 90 percent of my clientele are married , to the most beautiful woman , ( they often show me pics ) with beautiful kids ,,,,,yet they frequent escorts , ... Im not complaining in fact I believe it stops them having affairs and actually saves marriages ,as well as helping me to provide for my family,,, but , it is really hard to be the woman I was before that believed in love and fairytales....I just accept that men are men and unfortunately this makes me struggle to trust in my own relationship ( which is self sabotage)

I'd think so too. You could be a really great guy, but you still have this one flaw, which is a fatal one for the fairy tales. And if you been with your client long enough you'd probably start to see the bad more than the good.

@nicknailer, things just go to shit sometimes.

For me the question is. So I cheat on my wife. What now. I still love her, probably even more, because of the guilt. Maybe even over compensating.

"Men are men" ... what a shitty box to be in. Could I ever be faithful again or will I always be a philandering dick. ...

To be honest while I am behaving like an asshole (and enjoying it), my desire is still to be captured by one, even my wife, if she'd put the effort in.

Thanks for your insight. it just seems that men need other woman , regardless of how perfect their spouse may be , Its made me understand that thats just how it is, I may satisfy my partner in every way and they do love me but the intrinsic nature of the male species is to spread their seed , so to speak.,,, which is why there is such a demand for service providers like myself.....woman that have not experienced this industry or are not aware of it , are naive to such things and I envy them ..........what one does not know cannot affect you.....dont get me wrong as I said before I am grateful that I can provide but I just wish I could erase certain things from my brain !