Is this the same lady from the other threads PeterBuck? Does she know how you feel?

Maverick, it is the same Princess.

And yes, told her exactly my feelings. Not reciprocated.

And she left.

So, to put this into perspective, I was a really bad option for her. She decided to re-enter this twilight world instead of my world. My self image destroyed, stil looking for it.

By becoming a cold and cynical person, I put up walls between me and everyone else. Burying myself in work, occasionally venturing out for some release.

But the call was unexpected, the reaction unpredicted. The walls not strong enough. Nothing really said other than checking on my health. But just the sound of her voice.

There is no fool like an old fool.
Quote : Peter Buck

Signing contracts tomorrow to further increase my workload to minimise free time, for once the mind is free from work, invariably it wonders back. Exercise, work, sleep, the occasional visit, life has become a journey of survival.

Luckily went past the fourth stage, which is depression, and straight on to acceptance. Just did not expect the call. That was a curveball. Not knowing what to do. Uncertainty is always the worst thing. Knowing something for a fact, you can work with that. Will she phone again, meet for coffee, see that movie ?

Need to close this box and move along. Monday tomorrow. Hitting the ground running. No time for pondering.

Lightning crashes.

@peterbuck I am no specialist in the field so should maybe shut up but I do think that you are using the wrong approach. All you are doing is insulating yourself from living your life and who knows what you could miss out on. Plus drowning yourself in work does not sound too healthy, from a stress point of view
Anyway like I said just my opinion as I am not fully aware of the details and your situation. Hope you get to a "good place" soon

@maverick

Linkin Park Baby!!!
Great song choice here's your lyrics to your song....


"No More Sorrow"

Are you lost
In your lies
Do you tell yourself I don't realize

Your crusade's a disguise
Replace freedom with fear
You trade money for lives

I'm aware of what you've done

[Chorus:]
No, No more sorrow
I've paid for your mistakes
Your time is borrowed
Your time has come to be replaced

I see pain
I see need
I see liars and thieves
Abuse power with greed

I had hope
I believed
But I'm beginning to think that I've been deceived

You will pay for what you've done

[Chorus]

Thieves and hypocrites
Thieves and hypocrites
Thieves and hypocrites

[Chorus x2]

Your time has come to be replaced
Your time has come to be erased

Thinking of you PB! It's not easy.
The heart wants what the heart wants!

Mwah

Arz

PS. Vanilla Twighlight and Love will help me know my name.

Hi Arz

Thanks

Good luck on your side as well with your new venture.

Regards

Peter

Iamfunluva

Wish I knew another way. But working is helping me through the day. Make no mistake, when I party, I party. But work is the constant.

Buddy - we spoke about it......you know what I mean.

I am just a phone call away.......

Thanks GQ

Much appreciated.

Going to wait and see.

Maybe she will miss my sparkling personality .....

Regards