On 2024-09-02 16:35:57 KingofthePunters said:
"Cause one thing that I found out
I can't have one woman, gotta have three
One woman just to hold me down
One woman just to lift me up (oh yeah)
And I gotta at least have one woman on the side
That really don't give a fuck"
For some reason that song resonates; lol ...
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Some thoughts for the OP from a baby, just 3 yrs old. Maybe one day I'll be a pubescent 13yr old teen like Kickass...
Engaging in an activity that is illegal, not a societal norm - even "shameful", "frowned upon", etc is not easy. Living a secret life is hard. Will you be willing to disclose that to any future partner, or can you live with the secret(s) ...
If you choose the secret option ... it can be very lonely and even disruptive to who you are at your core. Kickass seems to deal with that well, being the social person he is. Thought of making friends in this lifestyle, but it's hard trusting other people "with your secret". But it's harder living with secrets.
Something that stood out from the OPs post. Limiting yourself to 3 ladies.
Many smoke weed. Not everyone is pot head
Many engage in casual sex. And many are more "monogamous".
The OP appears to maybe be more inclined to the latter. Wanting to limit yourself to '3 partners'. Maybe I'm reading to much into it, but it gives the impression that "being faithful" is a big part of your make up. And your biggest concern may be losing this part of you.
Two thoughts ...
(1) You are who you are. You can't lose "faithfulness". You may just need to redefine what it means in relation to sex. It may be better to do it while you young. At 50, it sucks ...
(2) You need to discover who you are sexually. The sex industry is a useful place to explore. And again it sucks when you 50. But you never to old, the only difference is the expectations placed on you are harder to rid yourself of. It's easier to write your story when you younger than wake up later realizing you want a different one.
Balancing your intrinsic nature of "being faithful" and discovering your sexual desires early may be more beneficial. It may even help you find better alignment with your future life partner.
Many people end up divorced because they "grow" in different directions. One partner may be "unfaithful" and then commits to another and remains "faithful" ...
Consider ...
Is it a lifestyle you want to be part of? Is it a lifestyle you can associate with? How much ...
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The above is just a lot of rambling thoughts ... but here is one fact; Whatever you do, it can't be undone! So act wisely and live with the consequences. You will need to own it, or your life will spiral into misery.